I'm having one of those weeks where it really feels like it should be Friday already. Work has been finding new and creative ways to kick my ass and completely beat the stuffing out of me. It gets depressing some days to not only feel like you worked so hard and didn't make any headway, but that you maybe even lost some ground too. I feel like I go through so many emotions every day -- stressed, defeated, hopeless, helpless, and worst of all...really alone. It's hard to imagine that I felt more support and sense of camradarie at my previous position when I was geographically in a different location than the rest of my department. It was one of the things I longed for most at a new position, to really and truly be part of a team and have a collegial environment. But lately everyone seems very quick to remind me of what is/isn't their job and not offering anything in terms of help or even clueing me on on where I should go to find my answer. I just feel like I am wandering around with no hope of things feeling settled or starting to "click" for me. Sorry for the somewhat depressing rant, I am just not feeling good about the current state of affairs today (or this week in general), and I don't think the gloomy, gray weather in DC is helping things.
So really, I need WILW in a big way today, to try and pick me up a bit. Because I am two cups of coffee in already and have found zero pep for my step.
What I'm Loving Wednesday
I'm loving...driving to work. On a day like today, even though there was a little more traffic than usual (because people in DC freak out when they have to drive in the rain!), I was much happier to be in my car with a travel mug of coffee than standing in the rain at the bus stop.
I'm loving...some new work clothes. Did any of you take advantage of that crazy Ann Taylor sale a few weeks ago where things were like $19?! I treated myself to a few new things and must say that it makes coming to work the teensiest bit easier when you have something new to wear.
Look good--->feel good--->do good, right?
I'm loving...getting rid of what I do not need. I've been doing some select purging from my closet in advance of switching out my spring/summer clothes for my fall/winter stuff. I've been better about tossing things that are worse for their wear - as in, worn too much that they now look pretty schlubby. I also did a clean up of my makeup last night, tossing out older things that are probably past their prime or shades that I know I don't/won't wear. Sparkly pale blue eyeshadow? Yeahhhhh...probs don't need to keep that.
I'm loving...Costco. I think I may have previously professed my love of Costco on here numerous times, but it is worth mentioning again today. My office is now *this close* to a Costco, so I can go right after work (again, YAY for driving to work now) and there are NO crowds. I can get in there and wander around to my heart's content without feeling like everyone is right on top of me or getting shoved out of the way so someone can get a free sample.
I'm loving...this past weekend. While I was sad not to go to my alma mater for Homecoming as I had originally planned, it was beyond wonderful to have a weekend where I didn't have to do something or go somewhere. No alarm to set, leisurely breakfast out on Saturday, cleaning up around MVP's apartment (complete with a cleaning playlist I created), lazy Sunday on the couch. It really helped me to try and relax and take a break from all that has had me feeling stressed lately.
I'm loving...the new Voluminous False Fiber Lashes mascara from L'Oreal. Two to three coats and you seriously do look like you have falsies on. In an alluring kind of way, not a semi-drag queen kind of way, I promise.
I'm loving...that I have set myself up with a pseudo nail salon at my apartment. I love the look/wear of gel manicures, but the expense can add up in addition to finding the time to go and get yourself properly manicured every 2-3 weeks. So I went online and outfit myself with all the supplies, including the UV nail dryer/lamp. I gave myself an at-home gel pedicure 2 weeks ago and it is unreal how good it still looks. It was nice to go home last night after a particularly hellatious end of my work day and after having dinner and getting some work done around the house, I could unwind with a glass of wine and give myself a pretty salon-quality manicure while catching up on DVR. It was as close to heaven as I could possibly get yesterday.
I'm loving...that after a really loooong Monday, I made a switch in my plan and went to stay at MVP's house. Sometimes it just makes me feel better to spend some with time him after a particularly long and brutal day. Knowing that I hadn't eaten dinner, he had tomato soup and a grilled cheese sandwich waiting for me when I got there. It was so thoughtful and sweet and I appreciated it more than I could say. I love that we try to find ways to support each other -- whether that's me helping him clean and organize his apartment or him taking my car to get inspected because I have no time. We make a good team and some days, that makes all the difference in the world to know I have someone in my corner like that.