Wednesday, October 24, 2012

You take the take the bad...

I think I have realized that I have been avoiding this little blog o' mine because I don't really have tons of tremendously awesome and upbeat news and stories to share as of late.  I am still feeling, well, STUCK

But I think I may need to vent or release some of the stresses, worries and anxieties here.  Not because I want anyone to tell me "everything will get better!" or feel bad for me or anything like that.  More so simply because walking around with all of it is making me feel ever so heavy. 

So things may be a tad bit on the grey side here for a bit.  No need to read if that's not your thing. 

Hopefully will be back to blogging under sunny skies ahead in the near future. 

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Hello there blog...I promise I haven't fogotten you

It has been quite some time since I have posted here.  Since I have written something other than work emails or PowerPoint presentations or a rent check. 

I feel like there has been a lot going on while at the same time nothing has been happening.  Does that even make any sense?

Somedays I feel like I am making progress at work.  I wake up early and workout and put on a nice outift.  I come home at the end of the day and make a good dinner, maybe do some laundry and go to bed at a decent hour.  I feel like I have a handle on things.

And then....I can wake up the next day and feel completely unsure of everything again.  Stressed at work by things that hadn't bothered me in the least the day before.   Too tired to get up early to work out.  Uncomfortable in my clothes and feeling like a rag-a-muffin.  Underwhelmed, uninspired, and unmotivated. 


I've been feeling a lot of "stuck" lately.  Somedays it's stuck in my job.  Others, its stuck in DC.  And still other days I just feel stuck in old thoughts and worries. 

I have missed writing here..but then when I try to think of something to write about, I guessed it
I just haven't felt totally like myself lately.   At least not for more than a few days at a time.  Maybe it's a 1/3 life crisis?  Changing of the seasons?  Not really sure.