I realize it has been forever and a day since I posted. That in and of itself makes me so sad -- and really disappointed in myself. It makes me even sadder that my absence here has been the result of crappy things. Mainly an incredibly difficult/frustrating/crushing time at work, that has then just sort of bled out into other facets of my life. Oh, and another trip to the ER added in for good measure! I think one more visit, and I get my own parking spot there :)
I do have perspective. I have a paying job. I have my health. I have a roof over my head. I have a wonderful guy who loves and supports me and is my best friend. I have so much to be grateful for. And I am. Every day.
I'm just in a bit of a rough patch now. Under a dark cloud. Whatever you want to call it.
And I am hoping like heck that I work my way out of it soon. Because it has been knocking me left and right and kicking me in the teeth for the better part of almost a month now. And really taken its toll.
I do think neglecting this little ol' blog didn't help matters. So I need to make it part of my routine again. Find those moments in the midst of the craziness of the day to just focus on myself. On this blank white screen and filling it with letters and words and thoughts that are all my own. I need it. I've missed it.
And I think I have especially missed the interaction with folks like you. I've still been lurking around, trying to read an keep up with other blogs. But have been on the sidelines. And really need to get back in the game.