Normally I enjoy taking a break on Wednesday and finding time to "find the happy" and post a What I'm Loving Wednesday. I don't know if it's the dreary weather going on here in DC, my current work situation, or the overflowing cup o' stress I have going on at the moment, but I just can't seem to muster it today. Hoping that posting at least SOMEthing will help me today, so I'm going to keep on keeping on with the Ten Day Challenge
Eight Fears Oh hell, this probably isn't going to help me is it....sonnovabitch.
•1• Not being good at what I do for work (and in my current case, just keeping my job in general)
•2• Not finding something that I can be passionate about in my job (this one, or any other one really)
•3• Just f*cking up in general...making the wrong choices, not living up to potential/expectations, letting people down, not meeting obligations.
•4• Not being able to be a mom someday.
•5• Knives. I have no idea why, but they make me tense.
•6• Getting older. IN ALL senses of the act. I will be completely honest that I worry about aging for vain reasons of how it changes the way I look and how I feel. I sometimes get fearful that I am am not as far along in my life as I could/should be at my age and that I still have a lot I hope to accomplish that I might not get to do. Basically, I'd like to get a big old Mulligan on the last 7 or so years and backtrack and do somethings differently.
•7• Not mattering. Like if I am not someone's wife or someone's mother, does that mean I don't/won't matter to anyone or that I am not really making any mark?
•8• Natural disasters. I mean, those things are scary.