With all of the changes and new things going on in my life at the moment, I find myself thinking quite a bit about timing. Does it play as big a part in your life as people say it will or should? Had the opportunity for the new job come around just a few months earlier, I likely would have been too busy with a huge event at work to even be able to entertain the thought of interviewing. I've spent a good bit of time in the last year lamenting that friends live so far away....had I moved, I wouldn't be here now as one of those friends moves back.
I am a worrier by nature -- I get it from Coach. To add to that, I am also horrible at making decisions. Now that is not to say I make bad decisions. Just that it takes me far longer than the average person to make a decision. Everything from taking a new job down to what I am going to have for dinner. Inability to make decisions is what leads me to be a chronic overpacker. I like choices, I like having options.
And my life has been full of choices and options. Looking back I am proud of some of them and disappointed in myself for others. I realize some of them I had to make to get to greater or bigger things down the road. Some of them I outright f*cked up and know never to repeat those mistakes again.
I'm watching as other people in my life are making important life decisions -- relationships, jobs, houses, babies. It all seems a little overwhelming, even when it isn't my own choice to make. Just as with my own life, I find myself agreeing with some and feeling cautious for others. How much of their choice is an actual choice and how much of it is the timing in their life that leads them towards that decision.
I know, I know...this is a little too heavy for usual Deviled Megs fodder. Chalk it up to a very long day at work and very little sleep last night that have me thinking big thoughts far too late at night ;)